Right after I had dropped my 38 pounds and was getting to get really excited that I was 10 pounds away from my wedding day weight, I started feeling not so well.
I was cranky, tired, onry, and just didn't feel well, I started to think, WHAT is wrong with me?? Well I started doing some calculations in my head, and started to freak out a little bit. NO WAY!! It can't be.
YES IT CAN!!
This little thing has been growing inside of me and is what was wearing me out. I was floored. After 3 1/2 years of TTC {trying to concieve}, having this little surprise just made me speechless.
It has sunk in. {a little bit} I am starting to get excited, though when I think about 21 month apart children, it freaks me out again.
I know I can do it. I know I'm not the first ............. and won't be the last, but I just get nervous. I know that God has a hand in all things. I know that we wanted a family SOOO bad and so things are happening for us. I just wish it would've been a little later but hey, He knows ALL things and beggars can't be choosers. right?? And if you saw my joke on Facebook. THAT was a complete joke. I WAS pregnant at the time, but had NO idea. I thought I'd be silly and it backfired on me. Now I know to not do THAT again.
So that's where I've been. Creating another life. I've been resting many a hours away. Between all the many others things I have to get done, I've needed rest and naps. I am now out of the first trimester so hopefully the tiredness will lighten a little, but I STILL have an almost 15 month old, and very active almost 7 year old, so I know I probably will continue to be tired. I guess it goes with the territory. I have a new sympathy, empathy, understanding for those with little ones so close together. WOW! Is all I can say.
So, come the end of this year, right before Christmas, a new little one will be joining our house. {If all continues to go well, of course} I always have that reserve to me, with my history. I am on medication again to help prevent miscarriaging, same stuff I was on with Mr. B, and so I think everything will go OK. I had a level 2 u/s done yesterday (where the picture came from) and she said everything looks good. We are excited and happy about that.
It is now Summer here, as my 1st grader had his last day of school yesterday and he wants to get out and SWIM and have fun so, I am outta here. Time for lots of fun and sun ahead!! (oh joy!, How am I going to make it through this summer??)
I think I can I think I can!! For now,
toodles.
~Hope
8 comments:
I know you can do it, cause we just do!! I'm glad you're finally getting excited and have celebrated your latest surprise!! Don't stress, they can feel it!! Remember my surprise no. 3?!?!?!
You've given me a lot of HOPE today, so thank you!
Congrats on the surprise. I'm jealous!
Wahoo!!!!!!!!!! This is wonderful news. I can't tell you how excited I am for you. FANTASTIC!!! I worry too since it took us about 3 years each time that a 3rd will come sooner than we are ready but like you we'd gladly take it. Having them super close together seems a lot harder. You'll do great! Will you find out if the baby is a boy or girl?
So excited for you Hope!
what a beautiful picture!
There is hope Zinke, please know that. He is aware of you!!
Thanks Bikmans it is exciting! We too, will take what we are given. YES!! Most definitely will find out BEFORE the baby is born.
and Thank you Lori, Dana, and Jill. The love and support helps for sure!
Oh my goodness, congratulations! What an exciting and exhausting time for you. I hope you are feeling well and have more energy soon.
Hey there Nodya - I've been out of the loop for a while, but as I was going through old Christmas cards last night, I happened upon your old blog address. So today I typed it in and was happy to learn that you are expecting - that is wonderful news! Hope you feel better each day and get a chance to really enjoy the summer!
Lubyu tebya rubaska!
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